The Morning Star Rising on the First Day
Review of Prior Postings
In prior postings I have communicated how a life threatening illness sent me to the emergency room near death. My spirit left my body and I experienced the truth of our spiritual reality, of heaven and hell, and the Judgment God.
If you would like to read the details of these postings, please use the following hyperlinks:
The-Intensive-Care-Unit-and-the-Initial-Prognosis
Entering-the-Spiritual-Realm-of-Death
Inside-the-Lake-of-Fire-the-Second-death
Reliving-my-sins-before-the-Judgment-Seat-of-Christ
Opening-the-Books-on-Judgment-Day
Repentance-Brings-Salvation-Even-on-Judgment-Day
I lived through the Judgment as I made a promise to God to change. I returned to the physical world and underwent several calamities that also brought me close to death. What I did not know was that I was under spiritual attack, an innocent victim of spiritual warfare.
If you would like to read the details of these postings, simply click on the following hyperlinks:
The-Physical-Impacts-of-Spiritual-Attack
The-Aftershocks-of-Spiritual-Attack
Spiritual-Attack-Brings-a-Hopeless-Outlook
A-Healing-Miracle-Follows-Meager-Attempt-to-Find-God
Standing-Firm-for-What-God-put-into-my-Heart
The-Spiritual-Attacks-Continue
Spiritual-Warfare-Changes-Everything
The past three postings address my surrender to God, (I-Finally-Surrender-to-God) and the beautiful vision of the world to come (Surrender-is-Followed-by-a-Glorious-Vision) and my dramatically changed (Gods-Plans-Begin-with-Blessings.)
I Finally Surrender to God
In a series of prior postings I have communicated how a life threatening illness sent me to the emergency room where the doctors did not expect me to live through the night. Being close to death, my spirit left my body and I experienced the truth of our spiritual reality. I traveled to and swam in the Lake of Fire (also called the second death) where I experienced unimaginable horrors. I then went into Hell where I was confronted by Satan and experienced the incredible hatred that he has for me. Next I traveled to the Judgment Seat of Christ and heard the words from God that no one wants to hear, which were, “Why should you live?”
But I made a promise to God that I would be better if He would work with me. The next thing that I knew was that I woke up in the intensive care center. I had lived through the night but what was about to become clear was that the battle for my life was not over. My problem was an exploding pancreas was filling my body with powerful digestive enzymes capable of decomposing the internal organs of my body. So in effect, my body was disintegrating from the inside out. To slow down enzyme production I was placed on a strict fast until such time as a more definitive direction could be made. Then suddenly my vocal cords became swollen and choked off my air supply and an emergency operation was performed that saved my life. Another operation was performed to insure that I had proper levels of nutrition entering my body. Then I was beset by a series of traumatic attacks of a mysterious infection that took me to the brink of death on three separate occasions. Not realizing that I was under spiritual attack my troubles continued. Here is what happened next.
My health continued to improve slowly and I eventually started working full time again. Soon afterwards I transferred to our Dallas/ Fort Worth location. So there were some good things happening, but it was a mixed bag at the same time. Just after we moved to Texas, my dad died after being sick for over a year with a heart condition. I loved him very much and In losing my dad, I lost the one person in this world who truly believed in me. I miss him still. In the meantime, I was having work-related problems. There had been a departmental reorganization at work and I found myself working for someone who had very different ideas than I did. As time went on, the situation became more and more unbearable and I became increasingly unhappy. One night after my wife was in bed, I walked the hallway thinking about the possibility of being out of work. There had been some rumors about a reduction in staffing levels coming down the pike. My disagreements on the direction of the department would make me an easy target if such a reduction in force were to take place. I thought about how hard it would be to find another job in the current down economy. What bothered me more than anything was the thought about how I was letting my family down.
This was a breaking point for me. I just could not handle all the turmoil in my life anymore. As I walked back and forth down the hallway of my home I became emotionally upset and I finally gave up on the idea that I could do it all on my own. I lost my balance and fell against the wall on my left side crying. Then I blurted out, “Okay God, I give up. I will do whatever You want me to do.” Those words came from my heart.
I did not realize it then, but this surrender was the start of wonderful changes. Things would continue to get worse for a while, but now God was going to show me that He had a new direction and a new strategy for my life. Big changes were in store for me, whether I knew it or not. I was about to move into the realm of God’s will. In addition, I was about to learn how God leads and works with His people in this world. I was about to experience the blessings and favor that He bestows on those who faithfully follow and love Him.
The Transfigured Jesus With Moses And Elijah
Most importantly, I was about to see the manifestation of the power and glory of God. I was now headed directly toward a relationship with the one and only God. From this point forward I would be changed forever, never to be my former self again—never wanting to go back, never looking back, and all the while discovering that I had received the most tremendous blessing possible. I had been saved from the horrible fate that I had chosen for myself and had been placed on a pathway that leads to the glory of God (notice the pathway carved out of the earth below, the one that leads to the glory of God.)
The Morning Star Rising on the First Day
SEEKING JESUS 