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Spiritual Attack Brings a Hopeless Outlook

In a series of prior postings I have communicated how a life threatening illness sent me to the emergency room where the doctors did not expect me to live through the night. Being close to death, my spirit left my body and I experienced the truth of our spiritual reality. I travel to and swam in the Lake of Fire (also called the second death) where I experienced the unimaginable horrors. I then went into Hell where I was confronted by Satan and experienced the incredible hatred that he has for me. Next I traveled to the Judgment Seat of Christ and heard the words from God that no one wants to hear, which were, “Why should you live?”

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But I made a promise to God that I would be better if He would work with me. The next thing that I knew was that I woke up in the intensive care center. I had lived through the night but what was about to become clear was that the battle for my life was not over. My problem was an exploding pancreas was filling my body with digestive enzymes that are used to decompose meat. So in effect, my body was disintegrating from the inside out. To slow down enzyme production I was placed on a strict fast until such time as a more definitive direction could be made. Then my vocal cords became swollen and choked off my air supply and an emergency operation was performed. But now things were coming to a head and it looked like we were running out of options. Here is what happened.

By this time, I had gone without eating for almost three weeks although I had been on an IV for two of those weeks. Shortly after the bout of difficult breathing, I started showing improvement in my abnormally high enzyme levels. They had decreased from being hundreds of times higher than normal to only ten times normal. With this improvement, the doctors thought that I was ready to start eating again. They started me off very gradually with a soft and bland diet. Everything went well for about a week but suddenly my enzyme levels shot up dramatically again.

I was placed back on fasting until things turned around. When they did I was reinstated on the soft, bland diet. Unfortunately, my enzyme levels shot up again just a few days later. I was placed back on fasting once again being totally dependent on the sugar water IVs to which I was continuously connected to now. I had now lost over thirty five pounds since I had first entered the hospital. I had no more fat to live off of and the doctors did not want to see any more weight loss.

But then another problem popped up. The veins in my arms, legs, hands, and feet started breaking down. This meant that secondary veins had to be tapped for the IV feedings. This however resulted in less nutrition entering into my system each day. I could not eat without inflicting additional damage to my internal organs, and I could not get enough nutrition into my system to avoid starvation. Things were getting worse quickly and something had to be done soon. But what I wondered?

All of this was a direct result of the initial spiritual attack against me. Surly the devil wanted me to look at the circumstances and give up. He wanted me in a state of despair, but I refused to despair. Rather I kept a positive attitude and for some reason, maintained a belief that in the end all would be well with me.

My next posting will tell you what happened next.

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